Destined

I dreamt of a place I'd rather be at,
A place without fears,
A place of hopes, and dreams
A place where Mulder was safe it seems

The warm sand trickling through ones toes
A place in my mind, that I tend to go
When afraid or lonely,
It's a place I've come to know.

The cool breeze flowing through one's hair
The heat of the sun warms the air
The crashing of waves,
Saving one's soul
It's a place I've come to know.

This place feels destined,
It's right to be here
There's a boy building a sand castle,
Oh so near.

I watch as you help him build it
It seems as if it's you in the past
At last, you complete it.

From a distance I recognize what you've created it.
It's not a castle, but instead it's a spaceship.
The same ship that I saw in the Ivory Coast.
But it seems strange,
How have you come to know of this?

You were lying in a hospital bed.
The activity in your brain was dangerous, deadly.
I spoke out to you,
You remained motionless.
I feared the worst, and then you recovered.
Not long after, you were gone again.

Was it "them" out there that took you away?
I truly don't have an answer,
My fear for what has happened to you,
Is greater than anything else.

Could it have been true?
Were you capable of reading my thoughts and my emotions?
I never told you of this place.
I wanted to, but I never had the chance, the opportunity.

So, as I remain in this place,
In the thoughts of my head
I'm determined to find you
Where ever you've been.

I've found you before
And I'll find you again.
I promise you this much

This place seems so tranquil,
To calm, so you see
I must continue my search for you
No matter how long it seems.

They've shut down The X-Files,
And I fight and I fight
But my strength has weakened
Though I'll continue all night.

They've partnered me up with somebody new,
Someone who knows nothing of you
It seems as though they could truly care less
But I've promised to find you,
I will none the less.

The vision I have of the warm sunny beach
Disappears as I realize I'm not really there.
It's a comforting place, but it has little meaning,
Knowing that you're gone,
And then I'm aware.

Aware of my surrounds, my life, and such.
I've been searching so long, 9 months too much.
I should have found you, if you were there.
But there's been no sign of your coming

Until the due dates come, and I remain at work
My water just breaks and I ask my new partner to drive me there.
He drives me to the hospital, oh, I wish it was you
We've shared so much together,
To have that all taken away seems so unfair.

I'm rushed to the hospital, and put upon a stretcher,
When I turn my head I notice something unusual.
A bright light upon us, it seems so tranquil and calm
I hope their returning to take me along.

But instead it seems so much better you see
Your lying beside me.
Mulder, you're lying there unconscious
On a stretcher just like me.

I watch as they send you down the hall to ICU
I fear that it's all a dream,
One that I've willed myself to believe.
I waited for you all the time, but why now, why?

I can't seem to determine what all this will mean.
I've waited so long,
For you to be returned to me.

Perhaps searching was the wrong thing to do,
But it seemed like the right thing.
What else could I do?

A tear flows down my cheek,
For I fear the life of my child, 'they" seek.
Is that why they've come back?

After delivery, I come to visit you.
I tell you of this child, and how I believe it came to be.
You ask me to quit, and protect it, I agree.

I fear leaving the FBI,
Will they come after this child of mine?
So, we've come to an agreement of such.
I'll stay with you,
And you'll help me protect this baby boy,
That we love so much.

So innocent, so sweet.
How could we do otherwise?
I no longer have to live in my dream,
Instead I can live the reality.