Fear of Love I dreamed of a man skinned alive A nightmare born from my unconscious No escaping the fear The pain The unthinkable, unimaginable, and unintelligible Who'd have known you'd have heard me call out To you in a distant slumber I'm surprised you hadn't busted down the door, Gun drawn. Was it drawn? I was too much in fear to remember that moment Of you in my hotel room To much in fear of the images surrounding my mind To remember the images that existed in time Oh John we've been together through thick and thin Through heaven and hell And yet you struggle to stay behind a wall Void of all emotion And yet I saw panic in your eyes When I awoke abruptly from the nightmare John, I wish things would have been different for you, For me, For all of us back in New York on the case of your son. I was involved then with Follmer I'm sure you knew I pulled away from you wanting anything more than friendship I didn't want to lose that with you You are my closest friend And I hope you know I trust you with my life And I'd die for you. I'd die for you because in reality I couldn't live without you It'd be too painful To wake up without you beside me in the morning; To rollover to some strange man Or worse alone for the rest of my life. Oh John, you know my involvement with Follmer was pure politics And I think you fear that with our relationship It's not that way though I'd never want to ruin what we have to get myself ahead In fact I'm not sure there is even an 'ahead' in our division So long as The X-Files is open, We will remain in the basement Solving the paranormal But is that so bad? You, me, and a bunch of files up to our head? I know it doesn't sound exactly romantic But in time perhaps it will You know John, that I've cared for you since as far back as I can remember And I know that in your heart you feel the same way too You're just too afraid to lose me like you lost your son One broken heart is hard enough to deal with. But what if I could mend your broken heart? Sew it back together again With flames of passion Would you let me? Or would you deny me because of your fear? Because of your fear of loss, Or rejection? You know I'd never reject you John. I've put my heart on the line for you more times than you've acknowledged. I can only imagine that you fear getting involved. Perhaps you think something with A.D. Follmer is going on between us But it's not It's you I long for I cherish to spend every waking minute with And when the time is right When all is right with the world We will spend our lives together Cherishing one another.